Today has been a great day. I got my haircut, spent the day with Jess and her mom, and we cooked out and went swimming. Now I am sitting at home reading the new book I got from the library today and relaxing with my love while the brownies are in the oven...yeah I know they are not good for our diet however, we are starting out slow and not cutting everything out in our diet. So we get one dessert a week and tonight is the night.
Lately my hair has been driving me crazy. I am not one to have long hair, because well I just dont like it on me. I have just been so busy lately I have kinda let my hair go and boom it was half way down by back before I knew it. Crazy! So today I finally took the time to go get my hair done and I feel so much better! Whew! I can breathe again. After I got my hair cut I went to lunch with Jess and her mom. It was great. I love Jess's mom. Things have gotten so easy with them. Its like we are all family now...however with that being said...it kinda makes me sad because I am majorly drifting away from my own family. I used to talk to my mom everyday and now not so much. We got into this big argument because I wanted to come see them before I start my job because I know that when I do start I wont have alot of time. My mom just acted like she didnt want to see me and when I asked about it she said it was easier "dealing" with me on the phone...that I was an embarrassment to my family because I am gay. Ouch...that stung. My dad has not talked to me since I came out. He wont answer my phone calls or reply to my texts so I quit trying. It just hurts me so bad, to not have my family apart of my life. It's not fair that I can't have Jess and them. It hurts more then I can possibly explain. I can't live my life for my family, I can't be who they want me to be, and it sucks. Anyways...
I am super excited about starting my new job. I am beyond excited. I am going somewhere with my life and it makes me so happy and I feel good about it. This is a huge opportunity for me and I am so grateful that it has presented itself for me.
Okay I am going to read more of my book "The last song" by Nicholas Sparks. Good night blogging world...
♥ H
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Sounds like you had a fun day. I thing its great that you are treating yourself to a treat now and again. So how are you losing weight? I was just curious. Tips and secrets are always helpful.
ReplyDeleteThat's great that you are feeling comfortable with Jess's family. I am the same way with Carrie's family. They all mostly know that we are together...and that's okay with them. I am still hiding with my family...and well that's hard. I fear that my family will treat me the same way that yours does. Its scary and sad.
I can't wait to hear about your new job. I am going to be job hunting in the next few months as well. Should be interesting.
Enjoy the book. I just got done reading Dear John by him. Awesome book but hated the movie after watching it.
*hugs*
Chrissie
Jess and I are doing weight watchers...counting points and so on... We are also walking around our subdivision every night, which is a mile and we keep adding more and more every time. Its hard...and we are doing it slow and not taking everything away at once...
ReplyDeleteAwesome. I did weight watchers for a while...but can't afford it now. Great job on the walking. Carrie and me are swimming right now..and walk sometimes. I also have a wii I need to dust off. How much have ya'll lost?
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