WOW! Did that really just happen?

HOLY CRAP! So so much has happened in the last 24 hours! It all started with my father. Now to fully understand you must know that my father and I have a very strained relationship. We used to be really close, he left me for years came back when I was 18 and expected to pick up where we left all...needless to say it didnt happen like that. Anyway back to the point... So my father wasn't happy about Jess and I going to get the kids and bringing them back here for a week. He wanted me to come there for a week and stay with them. I, however didnt want to be away from my home or Jess that long. He couldnt understand that because my family did not know about us. Soo... We got into an arguement about the whole thing and he told me he didnt want me to get the kids I told him I was so excited about getting them and he ruined it for me. Later last night I checked my emails with Jess, and there was an email from my dad, so I opened it and it said and I quote "When were you going to tell me about you and Jess and dont say what I'm not stupid" So my heart dropped in my stomach and I freaked. I knew right then that I had to call my mom and tell her because I didnt want it coming from my father. I knew I had to be the one to tell her. So I called her and talked to her like normal for a minute while I gathered up the courage and then I said Mom I have to tell you something and she goes okay. I said I have feelings for Jess. She replies "Duh" and then I could breathe. She then goes on to tell me they have suspected for over a year now that I did which they were right Jess and I have been together for 15 months. We talked and both of us cried, I asked her if she still loved me and she assured me she did and that nothing changed with us. I was and would always be her daughter. She then told me that just because she took it so well doesnt mean everyone in the family will. That it was going to take them some time to get used to the idea and I have to respect that. Which I do. My family grew up on very strict rules, and very old-fashioned beliefs. Last night I was just a bundle of nerves. So mom told me that before I could get the kids for a week I had to tell my brother and make sure he was still okay with the kids coming. Sooo... I tried to call them and they didnt answer so I emailed them. I know that is the chicken way out I honestly dont think I could tell anyone else last night. I was just so overwhelmed and honestly I still am. So now I am waiting not-so-patiently for them to email me back or call or something to see if I can still get the kids. I hope I can but if not I have to respect that it may take them time to get used to the idea. I just hope it doesnt take long. I really miss the kids. So when I woke up this morning I was trying to analyze how I felt... happy, sad, scared, nervous, relieved just so many emotions at once. I dont know whats going to happen with my family. I did the hard part I guess now I just have to wait and see what happens. I still dont know what to do about my father. I guess I will email him and tell him. I dont think I can do it over the phone. I am so angry at him for making me tell everyone before I was ready. I feel as if I was pressured into it, but at the same time I dont know that you are ever truly ready for that. I am glad its done and out in the open and I dont have to hide it anymore, so now I wait...and see if my family will still accept me. I will keep you posted.
♥H