Really?

So... I don't know that I'm made to be a mom. These kids have worn me out and beaten me down. I hate yelling and putting them in time out and what not, but they don't listen period. The oldest and youngest are definitely .... divas. They like to test Heather and I. They won't do what we say and they're well.. they try to do whatever they please. Don't get me wrong I love them completely and they can be sweet and loving and adorable. I just don't know that I have the patience to deal with being a stay at home mom or a mom period. I want the best for them. I just don't know. This week has deepened my love and amazement for Heather. She handles the kids sooo well and I know she gets tired of them but she cares so much for them. Its amazing to watch her with them. She truly loves them. She fixes the whatever they need and she doesn't think twice about it. She devotes herself completely to those kids. Its amazing to watch and be a part of. We still find little ways to show our love for each other but nothing too obvious. She mothers these kids and disciplines them and just is amazing. I know she hates disciplining them and stuff but she is truly amazing. She can tell why they make every action and usually counteract it with productive activity like naps or cartoons or something. I know she'd make a great mom if we ever decide to have a kid. But for the time being....We'll make great aunts.

Alright I'm hungry.